eternal love

the world lost a really great person last saturday.  over the years i have posted a lot about the love that i have for paul walker (you can read those posts here if you want).  i have just always been so attracted to him because, i mean, look at him.  he's perfection.  but it wasn't only about his incredible good looks. he has just always seemed like such a nice, down to earth, humble guy and i really admire that about him.  he was beautiful inside and out.

i might (/definitely do) have a couple pictures of paul at my desk at work so most of my co-workers know about my love for him. the monday before thanksgiving (5 days before he passed away) my co-worker had people around the office write down what they were thankful for and then she took a picture of us with it and posted it on the ultradent blog.  if you can find me in there you will see that i said i was thankful for paul walker, which i genuinely am. well today they made a card with a photoshopped picture of paul and me and then had everyone sign it.  see picture below.

when they gave it to me, i just thought "this is awesome, we look so good together! i knew it!"  i didn't realize it was a card so when they told me to open it and i saw that all my co-workers had signed it, i started to sob.  like crying so hard with tears running down my face in front of my co-workers. i could still cry right now thinking about it.  but isn't that just the nicest and funniest thing ever?  it just melted my heart.

i know it's silly that i have this crush and that he means so much to me but i have had countless people tell me how sorry they are for my loss.  i know that it is partially to joke with me but i still really have felt loved nonetheless.  i just feel really lucky to have so many friends and people that care about me. so thank you for your condolences, they mean a lot to me. it takes away a little bit of the sting of losing the love of my life.  

well paul, as much as i don't want to believe it, i guess this is goodbye for now. just know that you will always have my heart and i will love you forever.

love always,

paige

lucy and winston

"i'm lucy and i always look like i'm going to cry. i miss my family :("

"i'm winston and i bark at dogs on tv. i don't really seem to know what's going on. but i do know that i like to eat."

"we like to be touching paige AT ALL TIMES. we also like to make her let us sleep in her bed and sleep right up against her while snoring and snorting like pigs all night."

"and we like to follow her around and just stare at her. can you tell us when our family is coming back?"

so i am dog/house sitting right now and have been since last friday. i just am not an animal lover. i think that these dogs are cute, but i just don't have it in me to hold and touch dogs all day. i can't handle the hair. oh the hair, it is driving me crazy. i took them on a walk on saturday though, that was nice, right?

treats 'n snoozin. but seriously, that's all they do.

*i just want everyone to know that i would never hurt or be mean to an animal. i just don't really want to touch them or sleep with them. but i will if i have to!

does this make me a hipster?

my new glasses came in the mail today! i ordered them from eyefly.com and i am in love with them! i suppose one could say that they are hipster glasses, but they do indeed have a prescription so i don't think that counts. i ordered them in eggplant too and they are coming tomorrow. merry early christmas to me!

oh and sorry about the nudity in the background. the things that the milnes keep in their house...

ALSO i know what you're thinking right now, "why did paige take a picture of 25 professionally wrapped boxes of chocolate?"


well, guess what guys. i wrapped those puppies all by myself. today. i used to work at this place called scrappy notes (with my girl darcy) in high school and my entire job was to tie bows. so as you can see, i got pretty awesome at it.

huzzah!

adventures in finding a desktop background

so i just got windows 7 (we're really on top of all the latest technology here) on my work computer and while i was browsing their wallpapers i found this little guy:

isn't that just so terrifyingly adorable?

say hello to my new background.

so long, farewell

remember this post?

well the time for the civic and i to go our separate ways has come. i took my car in a couple weeks ago and found out that it has some issues that i felt like were more expensive than i wanted to deal with, so the car shopping commenced. i found a car that i really like and ended up purchasing. here are some not very good pictures of my last day with my best friend:

i wanted to take a picture hugging my car before i left it at the dealership, but i thought the salesman would feel a little awkward being the photographer for that. i had to sit in stand still traffic for 45 minutes (for no good reason - thank you, utah) on the way to pick up the new car. while i was sitting there i was thinking about leaving the civic at the dealership and never seeing it again. i literally started to tear up. we have spent 7 years together and it has been so great to me, gotten me through some of the most important years of my life. it was definitely hard to leave the civic.

but...

I GOT TO DRIVE AWAY IN THIS!

i know what you're thinking, "how can paige afford a bmw?!" well people, it's used and i got a crazy good deal on it. i am seriously in love with this car! working was so hard today because i just wanted to drive and sit in it all day. i am very happy with my decision.

in other pudge news, i got a new job. i am still with the same company, just a different department. i am now a marketing assistant and i really like it so far. the people in my former department got me a cake and a card to send me off to my new position. it is bittersweet, i'm really going to miss working with everyone.

big changes!!!

to the five readers of this blog,

i apologize. i haven't updated in nine days...i think that might be a record for justpudge - let me explain.

you know how i got that job at spark? well, about a week later i got another job offer at a company called ultradent and i work in the ortho division doing customer service type stuff. and the best part is...i have benefits. i get insurance and i'll have a 401k like a real adult. now if i could only figure out what all these things mean.

this past week i had to work both jobs which means that i was working from 9:30 in the morning until at least midnight. it was pretty rough.

but i'm not working at spark anymore and now i am back to a normal schedule like a normal person. thank goodness. i don't think i could have lasted much longer. though i will say that i enjoyed working at spark very much. everyone was so nice, i had a lot of fun getting to know them and will miss hanging out with them every night.

i try to keep this blog pretty light, but i just want to say that the Lord really is aware of us. i know that if you are faithful and keep trying your hardest to what you are supposed to, your prayers will be answered. it just may not happen as quickly as you would like.

employed

yesterday was my first day at my new job. i am a back server (working my way up to the top) at spark restaurant/lounge in provo. everyone is really nice and made me feel slightly more comfortable. i have never worked in a restaurant before - unless you count that semester freshman year that i worked in tomassito's in the cannon center, i sure don't - and i have no idea what i am doing.

but at least i have a job, right?

and the best part is...i mostly work at night so i can still be addicted to lost during the day - i only have 10 episodes left. i don't know what i am going to do with my self once i am all caught up. something productive you say? hmmm...most likely not.

it's monday...

...and we all want to die, right? it was especially difficult for me to get up this morning and i imagine it was for you too, as it is on most mondays.

but guess what. friday is the 3rd of july which means that i don't have to work (and i'm assuming you don't either) that day, this is a four day week and you know what else it means??? the next day is the 4th of july which is the day we celebrate our nations independence! and how do we celebrate it? with parades, picnics, barbecues and best of all - fireworks. i don't know about you, but all those things are making this monday morning look a little better because of all the gloriousness we have to look forward to.

and here's another reason to be happy today...
this is pudge's 100th post!

so sit back, light up (or don't, actually please don't) and enjoy your monday now that you have all these reasons to celebrate.

spring has (almost) sprung!

i work for shade clothing in their american fork store and we just got some of the new spring styles in. one of the girls i work with, diane, and i were up until the wee (sp?) hours of the morning on friday night putting out the new styles and rearranging the floor--needless to say, it was a good time. the new styles are so cute and i want them all...this is when that 40% off comes in handy. now if only the weather would catch up and finally be over 40 degrees.


check out the website: http://www.shadeclothing.com/