death of a legend

paul newman died on friday of cancer. he was 83 and truly was a legend. not only was he an amazing actor and incredibly good looking, but he was also a philanthropist. look at these pictures and tell me that this is not one of the most beautiful men you have ever seen. that's right, you can't because he is the most beautiful person you have ever seen. he will be missed and i wish that i had been born 50 years earlier so i could have made him fall in love with me.

catching up

i have been so busy and lazy (who knew it was possible to be both at the same time?) lately that i haven't updated my blog in a while, so i thought i would write about the happenings this past month.

at the end of august i got to watch my niece and nephew for five days while my sister and her husband went to mexico. we had a great time (aside from a few breakdowns).

painting their prizes for being good during the day.

you can tell he is having the time of his life based off his serious expression.

at the water park in provo, sarah was very nice to come with us and help me watch the kiddies.

grayson's prize one morning for following the sleep rules.

afton and grayson love their brownie mix.

learning about sharks at the aquarium.

we had so much fun, and did a lot. i am sure brooke is cringing at all of the messy faces/bodies.

other happenings...
-school is back in session. is that a good or bad thing?
-all of the boys from my freshman year are back from their missions and at byu.
-i am a senior in college! i cannot believe it.
-i took a fun little trip home to colorado last weekend with brooke and her kids. our whole family was at home and my grandparents too, so we had a nice little reunion.
-i finally saw mamma mia, which was hilarious because it was so ridiculous, very entertaining.
-fall is starting to set in and i am so excited because it is my favorite season.
-i threw a bridal shower for my friend sarah yesterday and it turned out really precious.
-two of my roommates and i drove up to sundance this evening and it was beautiful with all the changing leaves.
-we watched prom night last night and it was so retarded and incredibly predictable, yet i still shrieked, jumped, and covered my face with my blanket.

i am sure other interesting things have happened, but this post is just way too long.

overwhelmed.

i am overwhelmed. school started two weeks ago and i don't think i have ever been so busy in my life.

why do we do this to ourselves? why do we take on more than we can handle? i am taking 15 credit hours this semester and working 20 hours a week. everyone else takes that many credits and works just as much, if not more, so why am i complaining? i really have no good reason, i just am not used to being this busy. i try to talk to my parents about this and then my dad gives me his standard lecture..."i went to byu and took 18 credits hours and worked full-time and had a wife and child and graduated at the top of my class. so get over it, sister." i just roll my eyes and mumble something under my breath like "yeah, and that was 30 years ago" and then he won't believe that it is harder now. well it is. i just feel like if i am not in class, i am in the sewing lab or at work. if i am not in any of those places i am doing homework in my bedroom or asleep. how am i supposed to have friends? am i just supposed to throw away the funnest years of my life for school? i don't think so. but then i have to remind myself that i am here to go to school and get an education so i can go live in the real world (which is going to happen way too soon). what am i to do? quit my job? i would love to. too bad i am not a trust fund child and would have to live on the streets. the real solution is to just find myself a sugar daddy. i can probably "handle" all of this, but i don't think i will be able to do any of these things nearly as well as i could if i had enough time to spend on them.

can someone please feel sorry for me?