eternal love

the world lost a really great person last saturday.  over the years i have posted a lot about the love that i have for paul walker (you can read those posts here if you want).  i have just always been so attracted to him because, i mean, look at him.  he's perfection.  but it wasn't only about his incredible good looks. he has just always seemed like such a nice, down to earth, humble guy and i really admire that about him.  he was beautiful inside and out.

i might (/definitely do) have a couple pictures of paul at my desk at work so most of my co-workers know about my love for him. the monday before thanksgiving (5 days before he passed away) my co-worker had people around the office write down what they were thankful for and then she took a picture of us with it and posted it on the ultradent blog.  if you can find me in there you will see that i said i was thankful for paul walker, which i genuinely am. well today they made a card with a photoshopped picture of paul and me and then had everyone sign it.  see picture below.

when they gave it to me, i just thought "this is awesome, we look so good together! i knew it!"  i didn't realize it was a card so when they told me to open it and i saw that all my co-workers had signed it, i started to sob.  like crying so hard with tears running down my face in front of my co-workers. i could still cry right now thinking about it.  but isn't that just the nicest and funniest thing ever?  it just melted my heart.

i know it's silly that i have this crush and that he means so much to me but i have had countless people tell me how sorry they are for my loss.  i know that it is partially to joke with me but i still really have felt loved nonetheless.  i just feel really lucky to have so many friends and people that care about me. so thank you for your condolences, they mean a lot to me. it takes away a little bit of the sting of losing the love of my life.  

well paul, as much as i don't want to believe it, i guess this is goodbye for now. just know that you will always have my heart and i will love you forever.

love always,

paige

unsolicited product endorsement

have you tried this peach propel?

it is seriously like drinking a peach, it is so delicious. i'm not even exaggerating! it literally tastes like a fresh peach!!! can you tell how excited i am about this???

and no, i'm not getting paid to say this. though i wish i was!

"see you in another life, brother"

i have been watching lost nonstop for the past month and i am pretty much obsessed. i just finished season three today. this show really has (almost) quite literally changed my life.

at first i was all into jack and his scruffiness but he kind of just bugs me now and i find myself loving sawyer more and more as the seasons progress, but ever since desmond entered the scene, i have just pretty much been in love with him. i can't quite put my finger on it. maybe it's because he kind of looks like Jesus. it's probably more so because of his glorious accent and i just can't resist a scotsman apparently. or maybe it's because he can't seem to button up his shirt all the way.

i happened upon this gem on google images:

nothing like a man's shirt unbuttoned all the way down to the belly button. ridiculous.

oh desmond. i love you.

'tis the season

a couple of the blogs that i stalk have been writing about things that they are grateful for. so, in the spirit of the season, i will give you three.

number one.

i am thankful today is wednesday, as is evident in the post below. seriously though, watch modern family tonight. i'm even going to invite you to my apartment to watch it. consider yourself invited. (but if you're really going to come, text me and give me some notice.)

number two.

i am thankful for my almost-nine-year-old niece's cell phone because i get to have conversations via text like this one:

me: londie pants! i'm going to be in colorado in 3 and a half days.

i can't wait to see my babies, i miss you!

london: i now!!!!! i am really exited!! i miss you. have a good time!

or

london: hey, text me when i get out of school at 3:30

"have a good time?" seriously, so precious.

number three.

i am thankful for mylifeisaverage.com. this website has literally changed my life. i am obsessed, all i do at work every morning is read this glorious, hilarious website. thank you mlia, thank you. i just hope that someday my life can be average enough to grace the presence of your website.

number four.

how 'bout a fourth? sounds good to me. i am thankful that i had my cooking class tonight so i don't have to worry about eating tonight and we all know that is a big burden for college students. oh, i wish i was kidding right now.

what are you thankful for on this fine november evening?

i wish today was wednesday.

wanna know why?

because wednesday is the day that modern family comes on. if you haven't been watching this show, you're really missing out. it's time you started living your life by watching it. who knows? it just may change your life.

i love it for one reason and one reason only: pure hilarity.

watch this clip. now. you won't regret it.

now wasn't that hilarious? you're welcome. and that's not even the funniest clip out there.

wednesday night. 8:00. abc.

i'm going to do you a favor

and tell you to download urban outfitter's lstn #7. it is 25 free songs and a lot of them are quite good.

i am completely in love with this song. why can't i sing like that?

have you seen this?

please tell me you have seen the secret life of bees. this movie is amazing. i read the book a couple years ago and thought that it too was amazing, but the movie just affected me so much more - probably because i am a visual person. i saw the movie twice in the theater (big deal when you're poor) and rented it the week it came out on dvd. i thought it was well cast which is surprising because i don't really like queen latifa or alicia keys, but they all played their parts so well, especially dakota fanning. i am so impressed by dakota, she is such a good little actress. she has this presence in a movie that is remarkable for only being 15 years old and she has been that way ever since she started acting. she reminds me of my niece, so maybe i am a little biased. anyway, the movie is wonderful. if you haven't seen it, please do - it will make you feel so good inside. you will want to cry the entire movie and if you're like me, you will cry through the entire movie.

i don't want to spoil anything, so i will just tell you this - moral of the story: everyone deserves to be loved.

anyone else as mesmerized with this movie as i am?

turn me loose

please tell me you have seen the movie wet hot american summer. it is incredibly random, awkward, inappropriate and hilarious. unfortunately it is rated r (i promise i watched it in my past life before i gave up r-rated movies) so i guess i can't really recommend you watch it, unless you do watch r-rated movies, then by all means. this is by far the greatest scene in the movie and there is nothing inappropriate about it, so enjoy. oh, and if you haven't seen this before it most definitely will change your life. pay close attention to the guy on the motorcycle, especially when he gets to the haystack.

eryn--thank you for bringing it into my life oh so many years ago.

if you are like me and are longing for summer, i would recommend the movie meatballs to appropriately satisfy your need for a movie about a summer camp in the 70s. heavyweights is also always a great summer camp movie too. why is it not summer and why was i never a camp counselor? maybe that's what i'll do this summer...

this will change your life.

it has been brought to my attention that i use the phrase "this will change your life" a lot. perhaps too much. apparently some people think that if their life changed as often as i promised them it would, their life would be drastically different. but hasn't your life changed drastically since i came into it? don't deny it.

anyway, this video clip will definitely change your life, i know it changed mine years ago. enjoy.

now, watch this. thank you for telling me about it brooke.